And once again, all it takes is one email from my doctor to cut me off at the knees. My lab results came back, and not only was my blood sugar slightly high again, but my cholesterol was the highest its ever been by far. And I have absolutely no reason why. With the exception of my two weekends in Columbus, I have been eating very, very well, and excersizing more regularly than ever. It is so fucking unfair it is literally making me cry. He now wants to put me on a cholesterol drug, which pisses me off just at the thought of having to take yet MORE pills daily, as well as pay for them. This is getting ridiculous. And short of literally starving myself and killing myself on the treadmill (which I literally would considering how badly my back and leg hurt right now), I have no idea what to do to fix this. Every single fucking time I feel like I'm getting into some sort of a more balance head space with my life, my weight, my health, etc., something healthwise comes up and kills it.