It took some work, but I managed to get my better attitude back. Out of nowhere on Tuesday my back and leg were MUCH better and stayed that way all week. So in keeping with what I'm learning from my happiness book and irunurun, I made a very conscious effort to do things that I knew would keep my mood better --- walking at lunch, eating better, sending some positive emails to some men on Match who I knew wouldn't be interested in me, but still would appreciate compliments on their well written profiles (a rarity!), even doing little bits of cleaning throughout the week towards having the cable/internet guy come next week and not being overcome by dust and cat hair. (In fact, I actually just spent the last few hours doing some serious kitchen cleaning - some things probably hadn't been touched since I've lived here!) And while doing it, I kept my Itunes as loud as I would go and sang along with every song. Who knew cleaning could actually be fun?? And now I feel like I've earned some time on the bed with my book and the cats in the sun, which REALLY feels good. I think the lesson I'm learning is that when you're seriously depressed like I am, you really have to take baby steps in getting out of it...but it can be done.