For the past few days I've had a weird sort of numbness and tingling in my hands and my feet (particularly on my left side) again. (Had similar feelings for about 6 months in 2001/2002.) And I just feel "off" generally -- like my ears are clogged, my head is fuzzy, and I'm not quite 100% in control of my muscles. Like I could drop things while holding them, or trip on stairs. I don't, but it feels like I could. I'd call my doctor about it, but I already know from previous experience that he thinks this sort of thing is psychological and doesn't do anything about it.

And maybe it is. I have been INCREDIBLY bored for the past week or so...both on the job and at home. Maybe I've got some weird psychological thing that comes up with some mystery "illness" whenever I have nothing else to concentrate on. I know that last time the numbness, etc. was distractable. So maybe all I need is a good distraction. My birthday is this Wednesday, so maybe I can distract myself a little with that. Not much, since I don't have anything planned for it until Friday night, but I'll try. I'm turning 45, so maybe this is actually the start of some sort of mid-life crisis. I was hoping to turn it into an anti-midlife crisis, but my body seems to be against that idea. So maybe that should be my goal: prove my body wrong.