A week later and the pain's still the same. The therapist is getting on board about the MRI, but I literally cried all the way home from the appointment today just from the sheer exhaustion of going through all of this again, and the hold it puts on so much of my life.

Also feeling really lonely right now. Specifically for a man in my life, and it's been FOREVER since I've felt that. I think talking to my ex a week or two ago triggered it....not a longing for him at all, just a longing for having someone to love and to love me back. Very simple.

So tonight I am sad that my life is once again stuck at a standstill due to my health....and problems I have little to no control over...and no one I really get any satisfaction or comfort from talking to about it all. And while I know logically it's far from true, it just seems like everyone else in the world seems to have at least one part of their lives working for them, while I have none. A bad day for the happiness project.