Got a Zillow notice yesterday that the value of my house has gone down another $3500. It's now worth almost $20K less than I paid for it. Depressing. But also strangely motivating. While it keeps me from any options of moving elsewhere for probably a good long while, it somehow gave me the feeling that I need to look at things from another point of view. Number one, I love my house. It needs a lot of work, but I still love it. Number two, this job I hate so much at least provides me a means of affording the house, unlike so many other people in the country right now. And since I'm having no luck in getting out of this job right now, maybe I need to look at it solely from that perspective for awhile.

Another thing I've been thinking about this week is how I realized, after attending the Bakerella book signing last weekend, that there might be small ways for me to keep my motivation going, just by finding ways to get out and get more involved in the food/baking/blogging/business world a little more. Not only might this get me some valuable knowledge about all of the above, it might actually also find me some new friends with similar interests. (And I have to admit, that as much as I enjoyed the book signing, it was horribly depressing to have no one to talk to about it because no one else even cares who she is or why I'm interested in such things.) So I'm going to start looking for more blogs, website, groups, events, etc. that I can get involved with until I find a way out of my present nightmare. And maybe those things will even make my nightmare more bearable in the meantime!