You know your life is pathetic when you are being completely mind controlled by a cupcake.

In the hopes of getting a kick in the ass to start moving again on my Cupcake Dream, I went to the new cupcake store at lunch today and got a caramel cupcake, one of their few flavors I hadn't already had, and one of my very favorites in general. Getting it back to the office and trying it, it is only "just-OK". Fine, but not great. Mine are much better. However, two hours after first starting to eat it and realizing that it's not great, and being almost sick from the sweetness of it, I still can't bring myself to just throw it away. I've eaten two thirds of it already just picking at it all afternoon. WTF? So now I'm sitting here doing my own psychotherapy about it...about how I know it would feel empowering to throw it out, but still can't manage to do it because what if I later wish I hadn't? And then there's the part of me that likes having it sitting here, even if I don't eat it, because it plays into my "having enough" issues. (I'm even starting to tell myself that having it sitting here and not eating it is actually even more empowering than throwing it out...though deep down I know that's not really true, because there's still a very good chance I'll eat more of it at some point.) God, food issues are unbelievably exhausting!!