Two weeks from my last post, and I am just as deflated as I was then, if not more so. Despite several emails to both my old boss and lawyer I'd like to work for, I've gotten nowhere. No responses at all. It's amazing to me that even in the professional realm, men are all the same: if they change their minds about you, they just disappear. Unbelievable.

So for the past few weeks, I have literally survived on Pinterest. If I didn't have it, I truly don't know what I'd do. The idiots I work for are doing nothing right now, and I would literally be bored out of my mind without Pinterest. I guess I should be thankful for small favors!

And, of course, the potential job has gone south. I got a one sentence email from old boss stating that his friend now just wants to hire me as a paralegal and "work out" the assistant position. He was supposed to call me today to tell me more, but, again, of course, has not. Not that it really matters, because I can't imagine a scenario where I would do that. I am done doing paralegal work. And there's no way I could be both his paralegal and his assistant. He has someone doing a limited version of that right now and even that isn't working out. There is no way someone could truly be his personal assistant and his paralegal at the same time. And I've already told him that. At our meeting, I told him that being a paralegal is seeing the trees, where being the assistant is seeing the forest, and you just can't see both at the same time. So it looks like this will be a no go.

Speaking of no go's, my ex called me the other night (I didn't answer) for the first time in a month and told me to check my email. It was this long email telling me everything he had told me in our last two conversations...which he clearly has no memory of. I wrote him back questioning that, and implying that I think he's either drinking or taking some sort of medication/drugs that he shouldn't be. His reply was completely circular and ignored a lot of what I'd said. I am so over it at this point that I can't even write him back. I just don't know how to say "You're clearly lying, and you are now definitely ruining all my old memories of us, so let's just give up this attempt at renewed friendship (or whatever) and go back to our own separate lives."

Men are just so damn deflating. In all areas of my life. It really sucks.

Well, I met with the lawyer friend of my old boss last week, and it looks like things may move a lot more quickly than I expected! We talked for 3 hours, and while doing so, he pretty much decided that this position might be a full time job...that he would want to hire soon! We definitely need to flesh things out more before starting it, but I really liked him and think that we could definitely work together. When I left, he was going to speak to my old boss about "sharing" me one my old boss' business gets going, and then contact me about several people he knows who already have someone working for them in this capacity, so I can contact them and learn more. He left me a voicemail Friday night, but has not called back since I returned his call and left him a message to call me whenever. I'm not quite sure if he is looking for me to be the one to press him on this, as doing that would definitely be my job should I be hired...but since I am not yet working for him, I don't quite know what to do. I emailed my old boss to ask if they had spoken last week, and what, if any, decisions they had come to. No word from him either. Gah...

As for the doctor's appointment, he wanted me to go on the next higher level drug before getting off of them. So I'm now trying that for a month, though so far the results are the same. Sigh...